Lord, how do You desire to work out my father’s death for the good in my life? By Cathy Kawar

A portion of what God spoke back to Cathy is below.

What happened is not good, I know that it is painful. But that doesn’t mean goodness can’t come out of it, for no pain is ever wasted, there is always a purpose, My child, and one of the greatest purpose is knowing Me relationally, not just knowledge wise. Just as I created you and formed you in your mother’s womb and know every little and big detail about you, and how that makes My heart so glad, I too, want you to know Me. I too, want to give you the opportunity here on earth, to get to know Me and face life boldly, even in the midst of trials and pains, because You know Me and have encountered My goodness, mercy, love, and faithfulness.

Press into Me, My child. Look to Me. The more you surrender, the more I will heal… your healing may take time, but don’t be afraid to take those steps. I know how hard it was for you to open up this question, because you’re afraid of the unknown. But I will walk with you one step at a time, I will heal and deal gently with your heart. For I am compassionate towards you and I long to see you live a better life. A life of joy in Me, a life of hope no matter the surroundings, a life of purpose no matter the changes, a life of security no matter what has been taken, a life of victory no matter the loss. I want your life to count, and I know you want that too. I know you desire to live a life for My kingdom and to make a difference, and that is what I will do. But I need you to let go. It’s ok to cry, it’s ok to feel sad and to miss your dad, but don’t let it be the focus. Don’t wallow in your pain, or let moments pass you by. I have blessed you with so much. See the blessings, even in the brokenness, for they are there. I have given you a husband who loves and cares for you, and your mom is with you in your life’s journey to love and support you… though you feel you lost much, because of the great, loving influence of your dad, but you are not alone.

Deep in your heart, you know that you need to make room for Me to now be your father. I am your creator, I am your father and I love you. And even if your dad is not here and can’t teach you any more of things of faith or life, or give you his love or support or wisdom or encouragement… know that I am here… and I want to teach you and to raise you in this different part of journey in your life. There is a lot of change that has happened, and perhaps down the journey there will be more changes that you will discover, but I want you to surrender your thoughts and expectations and plans, even what you think is your calling, just surrender it all to Me and let me take you on the path that I want for you. let me re-direct your steps. I know you had it all figured out and I know the wonderful plans you had with your dad about ministry, but trust that he has done his part, for his life and in your life, even if you feel it was interrupted, and just let go and receive what I have in store for you. It doesn’t mean you will forget your dad or love him less; it just means that He is home here with Me. Be thankful for the times you’ve had with him, don’t just look at the traumatic or painful moments. I have blessed you with him in your life as a father figure, in the natural sense and spiritual sense, and now it’s time for something different and new to happen. My plans and ways may not make sense, but trust in Me, that’s all that matters. Trust in My goodness, sovereignty, and wisdom.

I will not leave you nor forsake you. I will build you up, I will strengthen you and uphold you with My right hand. I will walk with you and teach you and pour out My Spirit upon you, and use you greatly. I will cause you to see days of joy, and even in the pain, you will be able to see it. I will do something new in your life. I want to take you on a new journey, for you as an individual, with your husband and soon to be family in My way and time. Just trust and look to Me. Continue to worship Me. Continue to serve Me faithfully. Even if you worship in moments of brokenness, for that is great to Me. Even if you serve when you are tired, for that is great to Me. I do not look for sacrifices and protocols, but a genuine humble heart. And that is what you have. I want to continue to heal and counsel you and teach you things and to purify your heart more and to fill you up more and make you more into My image. To be a reflection of My love, and hope and joy and peace and bold faith, in a world that is broken. Even the Church, even My people, need to see that courageousness because so many of My children live in defeat and worries and fear and even in carnality, and I want them to see that there is a better life in Me, and I want you to be that vessel of glory. Where they look up and see joy and hope and faith in spite of trials that came your way or will come your way. I want to take full credit and glory in your life. I want people to say “the Lord is truly with her…” I want them to magnify My name.

Cathy: Hallelujah amen Lord. I receive and I submit to You, and I humble myself before You and ask You that You strengthen whatever needs strengthening within Me. Help me to surrender to You more and more. I trust You, and even when things don’t make sense, one thing does, and that is eternity and Your glory and being in Your presence forever more. You are worthy Lord. I love You so much and thank You for speaking with Me. I will take Your hand and walk with You on this new, different journey and to trust in You, in Your ways, wisdom, timing, and healing. Amen.