I quiet myself: “I love You, Lord. I am here. Open the eyes of my heart that I may see You, Lord. Open the ears of my heart that I may hear You, Lord. I want to see You. I want to hear You. I love You. My life is in Your hands. I submit to You. I lay down my life before You. Have Your way in me, Lord.”
I am sitting with Jesus on a hill overlooking the sea of Galilee. The wind is blowing. It is beautiful and sunny. He reaches out and takes my right hand with His left hand. He turns to face me. He takes my left hand with His right. We are sitting facing one another, ankles crossed, hand in hand. We start to play “see, see my playmate.” We sing the childhood song with the hand motions: “See, see my playmate. Come out and play with me. And bring your dollies three. Climb up my apple tree. Slide down my rainbow. Slide down my cellar door. And we'll be jolly friends. Forever more, more. More. More. More.” We laugh and throw our heads back. We lie down in the grass. Then we start rolling down the hill at the same time. We are laughing and playing. I am carefree like a child. I start to roll to the side. Jesus continues to go straight down. I get back on track and follow Him. At the bottom, we land in a pile on top of each other, laughing. He helps me up, straightens my clothes and brushes the grass off of me. I do the same for Him. We are still laughing, remembering the fun.
Me: “That was fun, Lord. I haven't done that in a while.”
My Lord speaks: “Neither have I!”
Me: “I have so much fun with you, Lord. I love to be with You.”
Him: “And I with you, My beloved.”
He takes my hand and we start walking toward the water. I feel the sand under my feet. I hear the water lapping at the shore. We are walking at a leisurely pace.
Me: “What is it You want to speak to me about today, Lord? I am listening.”
Him: “I want to speak to you about being. Being with Me. Being who I created you to be. Being My daughter. In Me you live, move and have your being. In you I am alive, moving and I have My being. Together we are living, moving and having our being. I AM. As I AM, you are. I am conforming you into My image. I am renewing your mind. I am giving you My mind that we can reason together. Submit your reasoning to Me. I will show you the way. Even if you get off track, all you have to do is look for Me in the Spirit. You will see Me. And you can easily get back on track and follow Me. You cannot get lost because I am with you. Always. You are never alone. All you have to do is but ask. Ask and you shall receive. Knock and the door shall be opened to you. I am not shutting doors in your life. I am flinging them wide open for you. I am opening the floodgates of heaven. I reign in your life.”
I hear the song: “Open the floodgates of heaven. Let it rain. Let if rain. Open the floodgates of heaven.”
My Lord speaks: “I reign in your life. I am training you to rule and reign with Me. I am bringing promotion and increase. April showers bring May flowers. Let it rain.” ***
Suddenly, it pours. The clear, beautiful sky opens up, and we are drenched in a moment. We laugh. I throw my head back. I spin and open my mouth to drink it in. Jesus watches me. He calls down more rain. The sky is still shining brightly, the rain pours harder. It is like a sheet. It pounds down on us.
My Lord speaks: “I am watering My garden with My living water. Drink deeply of My flow. Every day. Throw back your head and open wide. Drink of My presence and love. Consume My flow that My flow will flow out of you. You are My garden. Of Me there is no end. Of My love there is no end. I am the beginning and the end. I am eternal. Our love is eternal. You will bear supernatural fruit – Kingdom-sized fruit – that others will see and long for; in the natural and in the supernatural; on earth and in heaven; on earth as it is in heaven.”
I am spinning in the rain. He takes my right hand in His and begins to twirl me on His finger, faster and faster and faster. I become a blur. A funnel cloud.
Him: “You are a funnel cloud of My glory. Where I release you, I release My glory. Where you set your foot, you establish My kingdom. My kingdom come, My will be done.”
Jesus’ voice gets louder and louder. His voice is booming. The earth shakes with His voice. He is making a declaration over me.
My Lord speaks: “This is My daughter in whom I am well pleased. This is through whom I have chosen to pour out a new measure of My glory. This is how My glory will fill the earth in these last days.”
As Jesus is speaking, He gets bigger and bigger. I am growing with Him. He is pulling me with Him. He is expanding my Spirit. My physical body remains the same size, but He grows bigger and bigger and pulls my Spirit with Him. His feet are on earth and His head is in the heavens. My feet are on earth and my Spirit is spinning and twirling with Him in heaven. My Spirit is still attached to me, but it is huge. It reaches from earth to heaven. He stops spinning me. My hand is still in His. I open my eyes. I look into Jesus’ eyes. He is smiling.
My Lord speaks: “All this is yours. I am training you to reign and rule with Me. On earth as it is in heaven.”
I look away from Him. I see people coming in the Spirit. They are bowing before Him. Myriads of people are coming and bowing before their King. I want to bow before Him. I pull my hand away so I can bow before Him, but He will not let me. My hand is still in His. I bow my head. He lifts my chin.
“Tara, you are My daughter in whom I am well pleased. With Me, you will reign and rule on earth as it is in heaven. The daughter that you desire, you will become. The name you gave your daughter ‘Eden Raine,’ I am giving you. You will rule and reign with Me on heaven and on earth. My Kingdom come and My will be done on earth as it is in heaven. People will bow down to Me because of My glory in you.”
I hear choirs of angels singing: “Holy, holy, holy. Holy, holy, holy. Holy, holy, holy is the lamb who was, and is, and is to come. Holy, holy, holy. All earth bows before thee.”
I see angels surrounding the people. The angels are hovering above them. They are beings of light. They have faces. Their form is not like a human body. They are singing and rejoicing and worshiping as the crowd of people who are coming and bowing down to their King grows.
My Lord speaks: “I am bringing a supernatural harvest through you, Tara. I am bringing a new wine. A new glory. I am doing a new thing. And all you have to do is continue to live, move and have your being in Me and allow Me to live, move and have My being in you. This is what I wanted to talk to you about today. Being. Being with Me. Being who I created you to be. Being My daughter. Being the daughter you desire. You are Mine. I chose you. I crowned your heart with My crown. It is your heart through which My glory will shine.”
Out of my heart, a beam of light shaped like Jesus shines on the crowd bowing before Him. It is like a spot light. It is moving and touching each one.
“This is My glory. This is how My glory will fill the earth in these last days. Through one yielded and surrendered vessel at a time. My glory – the glory that your heart reflects – is touching them. They see Me in you. But it is through you that I am shining on them. Yes, it is true. I am training you to reign and rule with Me on earth as it is in heaven. Out of our being, they will find theirs. Be with Me today. Abide with Me. I will show you great and marvelous things.”
I respond: “Yes, Lord.”
I want to bow down before Him, but he continues to hold me next to Him. Hand in hand. I look into His eyes. He is smiling. He is pleased.
My Lord speaks: “Receive. Receive My being. My Holy Spirit is My essence, My very being.”
Out of His nail pierced hand, His River flows into my hand, my heart and out of my belly. Every person is touched by His river.
“I am doing the work. I am bringing them to you. Remain in Me. That I may have My way.”
I respond: “Yes, Lord. By Your grace, I will do just as You say.”
He kisses my forehead. I embrace Him. The River flows. My head is on His chest. I hear His heartbeat. In His heartbeat I hear the sound of freedom. In His heartbeat I hear names. I whisper the names, and they join the crowd bowing before their King.
“Oh how I love you, Lord. Oh how I worship you, Lord. I am overwhelmed by Your goodness and Your mercy and Your grace. You and You alone are worthy to be praised.”
His embrace tightens. I am the same color as He is. We are bright light and glory. My heart is still projecting the image of Jesus and touching every one. The River is still flowing. All out of our love.
*** This is my two-way journaling entry dated April 5, 2012.
Comments
Thank You
by Anonymous
Hi Tara,
I'm new to your blog. What you have written has blessed me so much. The Holy Spirit showed me how to 'journal' even before I read Mark Virkler's book. I was wondering if that journaling was only for a season but your writings have inspired me to start back and even go deeper.
There are simularities in some of what He told you and has told me! This gives me great comfort as I have no one to share my journaling with. Thank you.
Rich
Heavenly playtimes
by Anonymous
Tara, I love how the Lord played with you like a little child. He and I have played similar games together on my spiritual trips with Him. Reading your blog reinforces to me that the times I have spent with Him are not something I made up in my imagination but are a real experience, spiritual in nature. He is so full of outflowing life and love. My name is Susan Jones, I mistakenly missed entering my name.
I drank @ this hour from the river of Christ.
by Anonymous
I give all the glory to Jesus. As I was reading this blog post, the Spirit of the Lord fell upon me & spoke directly upon my spirit about the future that the Lord has instore for me & for His people. My name is Prisca Monareng, from South Africa-Nelspruit. I would like to say thank you Tara for allowing God to move in truth & in Spirit upon your life because in this way you have become a light on a hill top. The Lord bless you & keep you. The Lord shine His face upon you.
# Singing # Amen, Amen, Amen.
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